Hi All,
These last several years have been quite interesting for me as transiting Saturn has been traversing my natal 11th house, also known as one’s house of friends. As most of you know I have a hand full of decades in life experience, and I feel fortunate to have survived the period of self doubt and self worth that we all must experience in order to grow. This critical time of self doubt generally concludes after the high school or college years. Although there are those that will experience these difficult emotions in these early stages, there are those that will continue to experience self doubt and the lack of clarity regarding all levels of relationships.
My experience regarding “friendship” over the last two or three years has been one of consolidation and determining the pertinence for said friendship(s). First a little about myself Astrologically. I have Scorpio Rising and a first house Saturn. What does this mean, and why am I telling you? Well, for many Scorpio Rising individuals there is to a very large degree a desire to be able to trust, well, everyone. It takes time as you know to develop trust when trying to establish any type of relationship. Throw a first house Saturn into the mix and the “Lone Wolf” syndrome is acutely developed. Having friends is not a high priority, we do well by ourselves, and we enjoy our alone time.
Saturn’s transit through my 11th house is just about to end and test other areas of my life when it enters my 12th house. However over the time Saturn has resided in my 11th house I sought out people individually, and in groups, large and small. I discovered much about myself in this regard, as well as how human nature seems to get bogged down in the ego. Now mind you, I am a strong proponent of the ego and fear, without it we could never become aware of boundaries, or limitations, and the unique expression of being human. Still, it appears that many of us get stuck at right about the same point, and never seem to advance.
In this human behavior, people apparently refuse to open themselves to anything or anyone beyond the ages of their teenager, or young adult life experiences. They become cliquish, stubborn, rude, and immature. I will not say that I was exempt from these behavioral patterns and expressions, but over time, and once realized I tried to correct them, and advance as far down the road as I could. Not so for some of my younger or older aged friends, people that I think highly of and respect a great deal. I know, I know, and I hear you, this was self meeting self. No argument there, but I tried to recognize and change what I saw of myself in others, and hopefully succeeded in changing these unfortunate aspects of self.
I recently experienced a conversation with someone that did not agree with my point of view. I was not insistent or intent on convincing or converting this person to my perspective, just hear my thought. This experience was strange because I immediately saw the fit of frustration, the clasped fists, and the pout of a small child on the face of an adult, of someone I thought highly of. This “event” was not about my point of view, no, it was about control and the expression of immaturity, plain and simple. One would think that this type of exchange could be resolved by a clear and cogent discussion between the two parties involved. But no, this behavior was reminiscent of the child who had the only ball or toy that everyone else was playing with, then picking it up and going home!
Upon reflection I can now see through both the Astrological and Psychological profiles, and why this transpired and I am OK with it. There were others who witnessed this exchange and quickly came to my defense, it was not necessary, but it was appreciated. What Saturn has taught me about friendship both personally and as an Astrologer is that we need to be more tolerant and open to change rather than shutting change out. Saturn has also shown me that human nature is very stubborn, and not to have such high expectations of others, not even myself. Saturn has also reinforced my belief that although I have many acquaintances, there are few “friends” in this lifetime. I wish it wasn’t so because I want to be friends with everyone, but it is true. True friendship comes around very rarely, so nurture and care for the ones that you do have.
Aho
Curtis Williams MA, A.P. D., CRMT
